One simple method of Zen training that allowed me to overcome my post-traumatic stress disorder and unleash creativity. And reading the blog from the beginning, you can practise it without a teacher

Friday, April 21, 2017

What's So Special about This Meditation Method?

What distinguishes my method from traditional Zen and mindfulness?

The heart of the practice that I propose lies in eliminating the roadblocks that prevent you from experiencing your true self; it's a way of self-realization that you can practise without a coach, and it's suitable even for those for whom it's difficult to concentrate sitting in a static body posture. It's much more understandable, practical, and simple to study than traditional Zen; and at the same time, it's much more radical and effective than trendy mindfulness (but it should be noted it's absolutely incompatible with any religion since it naturally eliminates from your mind any authority that is outside.)

Practising my meditation method doesn't require any moral obligations except the desire to be independent and free - it's all about eliminating the taboos that were imposed on you.

Saturday, April 15, 2017

At Least a General Idea of Psychoanalysis You Need to Have

Correct Zen practice, in the long run, is akin to psychoanalysis in many respects: the sense of reality that you attained during zazen, decodes and gives the correct assessment of the thoughts that come to you mind - in this way your self keeps changing. That's why at least a general idea of psychoanalysis you need to have. In addition, those terms that two and a half thousand years ago were introduced by Gautama Buddha for the description of mental processes now are mostly outdated, so it's better to think in the new terms.

Unfortunately, I don't know what to recommend in English on this topic for beginners. If you can read in French or Bulgarian, try these two books by Pierre Daco:
Les Prodigieuses Victoires de la psychologie moderne 
and 
Les triomphes de la psychanalyse -
I read these books in Bulgarian in the 90s when I was in Bulgaria - strongly recommend - they explain psychoanalysis in simple terms, give an idea of its connection with neuroscience and an overview of all mental illnesses: where mind can wander. Try also by the same author
Comprendre les Femmes et leur psychologie profonde -
since I read it, I'm no longer afraid of women! ;-)

I like Freud and Jung (sometimes Freud even more than Jung.)

In addition, for general knowledge, I also recommend Erich Fromm's Escape from Freedom and
The Courage to Be Human (especially the chapter THE X EXPERIENCE AS THE MYSTICISM OF THE ONE)
and Eric Berne's Games People Play.

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

My Comment

 See the link below

This is true but only partly. As a former neurotic - I hope it was just a neurosis - I suffered from my memories. If your subconscious mind is poisoned, you can't ask youself about anytying because your thoughts go in the wrong direction. So instead of asking myself, I had to suppress all my doubts (the main problem was that my fears were primarily associated with my loved ones) this may seem unspiritual, but that's exactly what Zen Buddhists do during dzazden. Surprisingly, as a result, I didn't get in some kind of vacuum: the very denial gave me the understanding of what was happening around so I began to feel free from my past: it didn't matter to me anymore.

If your past no longer determines the present, then you have a choice. The truth is that we're not only our past, but also our potential, that is, the future - at least until we're denying the past.

http://motherboard.vice.com/read/memory-hacker-implant-false-memories-in-peoples-minds-julia-shaw-memory-illusion  

Sunday, January 15, 2017

The Perception of Time during Zazen

If you're perceiving a situation as a whole (while doing zazen, for example), you have a different from the usual perception of time: then each present moment is coming from the future - I'm not discovering anything new: this has already been described in Zen literature. And sometimes, by the way, you can use this perception as a gimmick to achieve the desired mental state when doing zazen: just be a receiver of what is coming from the future.

Some may argue that all we see is the past: for light it takes some time to pass from the object you're looking at to the eyes. This is true, but during zazen, you experience the real anticipation of the future. And this anticipation is exactly the reason why you begin to understand what you see without thinking: you begin to understand what's happening around when you see what will happen next.* Practising just sitting zazen, such a change in time perception is difficult to notice; but if you're doing the Walking Zazen (when you're moving, or changing, in other words, the whole situation with the legs), it becomes obvious.

From Einstein's point of view, past, present, and future are equally real and all exist simultaneously; there is no real difference between them, so there should be no difference for you where the present comes from - from the past, or the future - your destiny is already defined. But in fact, there is such a difference, and this can only be possible if there are different future scenarios, that is, if the future can be changed - that's why it makes sense to think of the future as of the Potential.

At some point of your practice, you may find that having a choice sets you free from your past (since your present is no longer determined by it.) However, it should be noted that the past can also be changed in the sense that you can change your attitude to it so for you it will have a different meaning.

The result of your practice may be the feeling that there are two opposing time's arrows, and the present moment is their intersection; sometimes the present is determined by the past, sometimes by the future (actually, if there is the oppositely directed time's arrow that manifests itself only on a large scale 'from the top', it cannot be detected empirically 'from the bottom'.) This doesn't mean that the goal of your practice should be about trying to predict the future, but somehow you'll learn to anticipate it intuitively. Particularly don't try to predict playing cards or dice: this will just drain you mentally. And, by the way, the weather and women's intentions are two things that I never could guess.

At some stage, your practice will go beyond the present moment and become mainly about understanding, which is the feeling of the future, present, and past at the same time. Therefore, in the long run, you should not discard anything, neither the past nor future, but just integrate everything you have properly: by denying it. Otherwise, without practising understanding, the result of your practice won't differ from the result of brain damage (due to a stroke, for example) although it may well give you a feeling of happiness: for the record, many Buddhists are satisfied with just turning off the left hemisphere.
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*Usually we control a situation by controlling several key objects which, we believe, determine the situation. But while perceiving a situation as a whole, you don't control any particular object but just intuitively feel how the overall situation is going to change - for example, then you observe not what your opponent is going to do but what is going to happen as a result - you anticipate the future.

Friday, January 13, 2017

If you are inclined to self harm


The healthiest way to self harm, I think, is to take an ice cold shower. Especially if the water hits your back between the blades and above.

Monday, January 9, 2017

Your New Intuition

After practising being only rational, Mu became your new intuiton (I hope you've already realized that.) But keep on making sure it correctly reflects reality.